I feel elated, like I am riding a wave of good emotions right now. My beautiful wife-to-be is 16 weeks pregnant with our first child, baby London/Summer. Just as ecstatic as I am to be a future father, I have come to terms with telling my mother about the situation. (I know she will like the names, especially if its boy since I already told her I would name my first son London!) Like most things in my life right now, it was Jordan who helped me through the fear, helped me see the clear reasoning of things that are so commonly unreasonable in the life of an expectant parent.
I have her to thank for bolstering my confidence, but also for letting me see and realize how great the things to come really are. Aside from our bundle of joy on the way, I am really succeeding in Real Estate and we are getting to the point of buying a house for ourselves in the near future. All I can see when I look at house pictures is us, the baby, and our sprightly dogs. I can see the baby room all decked out in blue or pink (Zebra print since Jordan is the mother!), us all playing together in the pool, or eating dinner around our table, or spending a nice day in the backyard. Our shiny new SUV is sitting in the driveway, and our kitchen is filled with delicious food (In no small thanks to my girlfriend's wonderful cooking). It is a dream, but unlike so many I have had in my life, it is so within reach I can taste it. I could not be happier about that either, it is really all I think about beside my future baby and Jordan.
The apprehensions about the future that have eaten at me are now fading away. All between that and now is time.
Just like Jordan, I really can't wait for my mum to know about the baby, it will put us all at ease. The excitement is palpable these days, especially when I am reading up on baby stuff with Jordan. It makes it all so much more real.
Just as the pregnancy progresses, I am more than happy to pull the extra weight around the house. I know Jordan feels bad sometimes that she can't do all that she could before without the nausea and discomfort, but I try to tell her that its all okay. I hope she knows that. I am mortal too though, so it is tiring, good practice for baby I suppose!
Life could not be more on the up and up at the moment. Everything is in front of us, and as I sit beside Jordan looking at Baby Stuff online, from cribs, playmats, clothes, and baby blankets, I realize that this is what I have always wanted. Knowing all this is really happening is making me the happiest guy in the world.
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